Realizing that there are some ways I can't provide support and that it's actually okay to say no
Your unsolicited advice is exhausting but not sleep inducing
Do you have any idea how many books I've read or apps I've tried, how much time I spend preparing for sleep, how many different ways I've tried preparing for sleep
The worst part about chronic insomnia is that if you ever talk about it people give you suggestions like you never ever heard or thought of them yourself before
The battle theme specifically
Not recommended for bedtime
I have Zelda music stuck in my head
I told Fireblight Ganon I would come back for him but instead tonight I blew up trees and cheated at gambling
Progress does not always look the way you expect
Had to work my way through a trigger to, like, just be basic angry and not terrified angry
And I'm kind of proud of myself for that, I had to keep fighting to give myself permission to just be mad
It turns out that blowing up trees is a really good way to blow off steam (also I have a lot of apples now)
I don't want people to look at me and immediately assume that I don't know what I'm doing
I would like to be treated as technically competent as I actually am instead of always being treated as less competent than my male colleagues regardless of facts
Most of the time there's a default level of misogyny in my life that I just ignore because thinking about it or pushing back against it is TOO exhausting... but there are days where it all just hits me and I just want to scream, I'm so tired
It's not enough that you care about me and respect *my* boundaries (although I'm not convinced this applies to the dude in this letter), if you have abusive people in your life and you don't have good boundaries with them, I have to have some space
It is relatively recent for me to realize that people around me having good boundaries too is really important.
This feature is really cool but there are WAY too many hands in the pie and it's just setting us up to go sideways (again)
The internal politics around my current project at work are making me want to go home and play BOTW and never look at another web page again
I'm very excited to find out what it's like to play with really awesome creative caring people 😍
I ran a Changeling game last and there's only one of those players I'm still in speaking terms with because I had just a lot of not great people in my life then
I love (playing and making) games. Spider toots are auto boosted.
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