rose eveleth @roseveleth@xoxo.zone

me: maybe they have forgotten that I was supposed to respond to that email
@d: oh no, I remember
me: crawls into a hole to die

lol good job me I decided to relaunch my solo independent podcast the same week as fucking Invisibilia love to compete with a goddamn NPR show!!!

Does anybody here know someone who works on vocal generation algorithms? As in, I feed a bunch of audio to the algorithm, it learns how to reproduce the voice, and then I can feed it scripts to make audio? I want to do a... weird thing but this is way beyond my knowledge.

My show returns next week and I think it's going to flop but I'm pretending like everything is fine how are you all!?!?!

oh no I forgot how to log in to mastodon I'm sorry

oops I forgot about this account

tried to procrastinate by considering which domain name to buy for a new project and wound up in a panic that I might have to change the project's name entirely good job me!!

I've been trying to schedule with a tattoo artist for over a year and now she's famous and I'm ready to give up.

I'm way too short to wear a trench coat and I don't have $180 but wow do I want this https://paom.com/products/tropical-neoprene-trench

There's this academic book I need to read for research. It's on a subject I am EXTREMELY interested in. But the writing is so dense and every time I try I feel frustrated and like an idiot and it's sooooo slow going and demoralizing.

I unlinked by masto and my Twitter account and it feels great

Yes this is very selfish! I'm prioritizing my professional success over a statement about the ethics of FB's business practices. I feel bad about that! But I also can't just throw out the main tools I use to make money without a backup plan?

I'm stoked to see so many friends bail on Twitter and FB! It's great. I'd love to see media entities push back on the power they give FB both institutionally and personally. When editors stop relying on Twitter as a way to find writers, when publishing companies stop using Twitter as a success metric, then maybe I could leave!

I would love to leave FB. I would love to leave Twitter. I can't. Not if I want to (successfully) continue doing my job as a journalist/producer/independent person. If I want Flash Forward to succeed and find listeners, I need FB. If I want editors to remember who I am, I need Twitter. It shouldn't be the responsibility of independents to push publishing/media away from the hell that is Twitter/FB.

I have a ton of projects that are probably going to happen, but aren't happening yet, and I am losing my goddamn mind with impatience and anxiety about them all.

I have neglected this space recently! I'm not sure how it fits into my social media life quite yet.

It seems kinda weird to me that there's a whole conference about supporting women in radio right now being hosted by a station that has a pretty shit history of just that and like, nobody seems to be talking about it?????

Flash Forward is currently being beaten by several podcasts about ghosts and one about fucking Sasquatch hunting. Several people are doing really well with shows that are their side project and hobby. Honestly it feels impossible to win trying to make a super produced show that takes up SO much of my time all by myself what is even the point. Maybe nobody wants this show! If so then maybe I shouldn't waste my time!

There's a comedian I used to live with who is slowly getting more and more popular. Living with her was a TRUE NIGHTMARE, including a lot of her screaming at me out of nowhere and her threatening to sue me when I moved out, and every time I see her stuff RT'd it's ... weird. Not even stressful honestly, it's now just a kind of funny "bad roommate" story now, but it's WEIRD to see her get popular?

I don't know how to speak LA.